madeline. 24. good at the internet, bad at adulthood.
Last night I met this beautiful girl at work and when I finished my shift drink we went down the street and drank Fernet and talked about Sheila Heti and Chris Krause and hating Jonathan Franzen and she is getting her masters in playing guitar??? and the guy she was with kept touching my thigh under the table and when he went to the bathroom I said, are you two together? because I think he’s hitting on me, and she said probably and I said which is weird because I only came here because I was hoping I could kiss you so we kissed over the table and then we made out on the steps of a brownstone on Columbus, and I don’t have a phone right now so I don’t have her number, she only has mine, but if I never ever see her again it was just a very lovely night where I kissed a pretty girl and remembered how lucky it can feel to be free.
So, once upon a time I was selling a poster on eBay that I’d done for some bands that were favorites of mine in high school. And then both of the guys from both of those bands said some really ugly, irredeemable shit online while the auction was up. And so I took the auction down. At that point, the idea that someone would have my art for those bands proudly displayed on their wall made me unhappy to think about. And then, after I took the auction down, a few people wrote to me asking why, as they’d been following the auction or had bid on it, etc etc. And so I made a very brief statement clarifying why I took it down. I didn’t “@-reply” or tag anyone involved, I didn’t call for a boycott, I didn’t throw down any gauntlets. Just let my followers know what happened in as calm and magnanimous a way as I could think of.
And then one of my high school heroes called me a “creep” and an “insufferable twat” and referred to my poster as “asinine”. The asinine thing really seems like more of a vocabulary show-off than anything, as the word doesn’t really apply in any way to, you know, creating art to promote that dude’s band? But I’ll give him a pass since it’s basically the least stupid thing he’s said online in the past two days.
Anyhow. Just kinda felt like sharing that. I don’t really have a point here and I’m kinda too weirded out to really be, like, sad or angry or anything. So please don’t assume that. It’s just… you don’t not share something like this, right?
In case anyone doesn’t know what these things that Joe and Ben said are, they promoted donating to Darren Wilson. I was never a big Screeching Weasel fan, and had already written off Ben Weasel after he punched a woman at SXSW a few years back, but I’m still pretty shocked at these dudes right now. They can both go fuck themselves.